40 days.

so, i think you'll be pleased to know that i have officially decided to give up shopping for lent. no clothes, no shoes, no accessories, no home decor. i am only permitted to buy things like groceries, a magazine, maybe some toothpaste? 40 days is a long fucking time, but i'm super excited nonetheless. it'll give me a chance to save money, but more importantly, i think it will give me a new perspective.

this business is so crazy sometimes, and it takes so much out of you. i have no idea how far this job will take me, but what i do know is that being in this industry makes it way too easy to get wrapped up in all the wrong things. i don't want to be someone that has to have all the new bags, or shoes, or jeans or whatever. of course i love clothes; there's no arguing that fact. but i don't want to be a slave to this business. i don't want it to control my life, or my wallet.

i have a lot of fun going to the shows. but i always get home and hate everything in my closet. you see so many cute girls with so much cute stuff, and being the young, impressionable gal that i am, i tend to want everything i see. i have literally stopped buyers and other reps in the aisles to ask where they got their bag, shoes, necklace, etc. and then i run back to the booth and use whatever scrap paper i can find to write down the name/brand/store. i'm not proud. 

so basically, i'm hoping that giving up shopping for 40 days will keep some much-needed money in my pocket, as well as help me realize that no, i don't need everything i see. i have enough. and having doesn't make you any better of a person anyway.

i will make you proud.

miss and love you.